27.04.2021

Without my rings

I'm a vain person, and I've come to terms with the fact. The fact that I like having things even though they do not add any intrinsic value to me. I am big on the bias I have.

Everyone wants to exist without bias. That is such a miserable way to live. Imagine living in a state where you have to always make, from scratch, every decision every time.

Sigh.

Miserable af.

But that's not the reason I'm writing out of intense restlessness today.

I forgot my rings at home today! This is not a vanity symptom, but there are things that make me feel complete. Those rings are one of them. My wristwatches, phones, beads, Cowrywise band, socks are others. But those rings are top top relevant for me.

I do not have them, and I have spent the whole day on this date, fiddling my index and ring fingers on my right hand.

Is this bad? Attaching rest to a certain object, is it not ment? I think it is tbh. Like many things I do, this is one of them—unadulterated ment.

"They are just rings", I said, but it's not helping. This newsletter is written out of undeserved restlessness.

Sigh.

Praise, good day today? How was work? I've had to be dragged into meetings without any goal. I am on one as I type this to you. Completely mashed up opinions with no goal in sight.

Good stuff happened today though. My guy got the job he's been reaching out for. 5-figure $$$ per annum, and I'm so happy. My team got two new hires today, and I am as nervous as I am excited.

I have someone else joining my team too fully. Amazing lady, and I'm supposed to live up to management's expectation. I'll kill that sha

I have more organized thoughts to tell you about. Stuff about gender bias, building a brand, Twitter, going out in Lagos, meeting new people, etc. It's over 10 days in Lagos, I'd definitely have stuff to write about.