Consistency in the mud

I really want to include that speechless GIF that I use on Twitter here, cos I am. It's so fucking hard to take your own advice.

How's consistency been on your own end? Lol. Good, I hope?

So my birthday is in about 30 days, and I'm musing the idea of doing a short documentary for it.

If you were the producer, what story would you tell?

I liked how J Cole did his short Off Season documentary. I'll show you.

I thought about a book that I'd like to write too. Is it too young to write an autobiography at age 22?

I was going to call it "Genius to God". The book would chronicle some of my life's choices from age 9 till age 22. I'd try to infuse my first stint with alcohol, my relationships (some of 'em), my fears, school shit, when I started wearing glasses.

Sounds like a whole lot of stuff to talk about.

But I'm busy ... so busy that I don't know when I'm going to get the time. Maybe I should get a ghost writer, but I love writing. I want to write in my voice.

Maybe 1h a day writing a draft? My consistency for micro things is in the mud—or so I think.

Maybe I ask for a team? Sheeesh. I'd have to motivate them. I don't have the bandwidth to do that. You want to volunteer? Give it time, the adrenaline rush will die down.

But I know I'll write it.

I'll tell the next set of designers who are still pooping their pants in SSS 2 and breaking boys' hearts that it is absolutely fine; that it'd make sense in a bit.

Why Genius to God?

I used to be called Genius. That was my nickname. It was Whiz Genius, in fact. Now? God—Future.

So, yeah, Genius to God.

It sounds daring when I say it again. I'm worried that someone would think I'm doing too much. "Who made him God?", they'll say. Where has he worked? What big job has he done? What is his net worth? He's not even skilled?

I'm worried, cos I'm human, and I give a lot of fucks than I am allowed to give.

Yet, the best autobiographies were not written by those at the top of their class. The Gospels were about Jesus, yet he says that the Apostles would do greater things than him

Exodus to Deuteronomy was about a man who prophesied that these books tell about another man. The entire book of the prophets wasn't because they were the top prophets.

Mandela wasn't the only freedom fighter. Ghandi is accused of numerous misdeeds. Obama is still regarded as a hypocrite. Trump is, well, Trump.

Stories are told because they can be told—not because something was achieved.

So yes, I'll write alongside my fears, misdeeds and misdoings.

I just need consistency.

Cut soap for me, please?

PS: About the documentary, check back in 2 weeks.

Nice to write to you again.

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