There's never time

"If you want something bad enough, you'll find the time for it"

That's what I told some dude some time ago when he was whining to me about how he liked this girl but can't understand why she keeps saying he doesn't give her attention.

"I just don't have the time", he said. Typical asshole reply anyways, but that's not the point.

Ignoring the asshole reply, my point is that I have said a lot of dumb shit over the years, and I think this is should be #489.

Praise, sometimes, the time really isn't there.

I'll tell you an example.

I enjoy my writing but I've gotten bored of it. I want it to feel more—like music. A little do re mi won't hurt. Something like the same artist, but a different melody whenever you open your emails.

What artist comes to mind? I'm thinking Falz the Bahd Guy.

It's why I started fancying Chimamanda. She's the only person that embodies that position I want to hit.

Quick break.

Usually, when I want to learn something—take note here—I try to figure what it looks like to have known it. I look for a reference point, something to measure up with.

I'd go "I feel XYZ when I read Snape's work, so I should expect someone to feel similar when they read my work".

Not just that. I'd also expect that they feel the way I want them to feel—their response is their business. I want to articulate my words so that when I hit that chord on cloud nine, it sounds exactly like I'd pictured it in my head.

I want to be the Hans Zimmer of words. Nah! I want to be the Hans Zimmer of my own words.

Fortunately for me, I know what to do to be better at writing. I needed to write more and read more. It couldn't be more easier.

The subconscious mind takes in over 11 million bits of information per second. Nothing feeds that massive process like reading. Do I have books? Yes. Do I read them? No.

Why? I'm busy.

I write although. It's like basic accounting. I spend more than I earn. That means loss. Huge loss. And it shows. It's why on some days, I don't find anything to write even with the flood of ideas in my head.

As I write this, I remember one of Victor's thoughts some years ago about doing stuff.

He said, "when you need to do something, think on the results you'll gain from it and not the task of doing itself".

It's not working for me too. My intended results are huge but they do not motivate me enough, cos I am me. I take life with a pinch of salt.

Why do I want to write better? Let's see.

• I want to entertain you. I want to make you smile, think, laugh, feel like I'm there with you. I want to be your email's best friend. * I want to write two books—an autobiography and a workbook. * My documentary is coming soon. * I want to take copywriting serious—on the side. * I want to write my own speeches when I'm someone's Chief Design Officer.

Okay, they're not as huge as I thought, but those are not the results anyways. The results are something like:

• A design conference—two maybe. * A design radio/media company. * Reaching designers and their communities in 6 countries by Q3, 2022. * Run a premium club valued at some high figure for those in the business of design * Have a design MBA—I hear it is a lot of writing.

But, I am busy.

Sad, innit?

I still have time to tweet tho. "It's important", I'll tell myself. I have time to see Anime. "I have to rest", I say. I have time to take on more gigs. "I need the money", I'll convince my tired ass.

But, reading? I am busy, please.

Maybe it's not important as I thought it is. I didn't say dumb shit like I thought I did.

Anyways, I'll read now. I'll read tonight.

I hope, you too, Praise, take the time to do that one thing you've wanted to do.

If you want it, it is worth wanting. Don't waste it.

Ciao.

PS:

I talked with my director last week about the documentary. We're really starting. It's going to last for 16 weeks, I think.

Have ideas? Shoot me a reply.

See you soon.

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