Sometimes god, mortal or ghost

Hmmm.

My favourite animal is the Arctic Wolf. When I chose it as my favourite animal, what excited me was the fact that it stayed alone (I only now discovered that it, sometimes, also moves in very small packs of six).

The Arctic Wolf is covered in all white, thick insulated fur — and lives in the cold regions. It is safe from poachers and hunting because of where it lives.

Shockingly, it doesn't hibernate during the winter because that's when it hunts the most. Beautiful eyes so yellow that I made them my wallpaper for the longest time — during the days when I was single.

Lol. Sorry.

I wish I hibernated in the past few weeks that I have been solid quiet — social media had its own fair share.

Most of the days had me thinking really hard about what I wanted for the year. I haven't had the time to write it down yet. I really should design my Notion workspace—I'm thinking I'll declutter it; maybe change how I usually design my Notion Workspaces.

I got the best advice tho, from a friend. She said, "if you're not a fan of writing your goals, try writing your wishes". It was one of the best conversations I had in a while.

And she's right! I have wishes. Some of them incredibly audacious; others, not so much—vain maybe. There's a couple of millions in there somewhere, my first angel investment, a car, a Mauritius/Sydney vacation, top-of-the-pile work at Bloc, and the best brand team for a FinTech infrastructure company.

Those are some wishes, huh!

Meh!

For someone so intentional about a lot of personal things, I am incredibly lackadaisical about a lot more; and these wishes were no different.

Thinking about them got my January so messed up. It was an undulating (up-down-up-down) graph if you got my motivation report card. It hit the roof and I said, "it's probably time you stopped sharing your opinions for a while—take a break, mf".

It wasn't hell tho.

I enjoyed the calls with bae. That part had my wish fulfilled—grateful.

So, maybe I should have written my wishes down. Would it have helped? Don't think so; but it is exactly why I should've written it down. Paper won't doubt my wishes, even if I do. To paper, it will always be the things I wanted but don't yet have.

"If you helped me hit my financial and creative goals, maybe I'd consider doing just this; but I understand that you can't"

"What are those goals?"

The answer to these questions made something that's been bugging me for a while quite clearer.

The Arctic Wolf, in all its splendour, cannot bark. It cannot hibernate, hunt at night or "be a pet". Like barks all you want, the Arctic Wolf will howl; it will hunt and survive in the cold. It will be beautiful.

"A couple millions a month"

"I want to do a varied range of design professionally at the highest level—with the new frontrunner being Generative Design".

But hey!

Here's some good news!

I got to write a letter to you. This is #119.

I can't ever make up for over 40 days of silence. But I can do one thing for sure. Ask me any question(s) in a reply to this, and I'll reply everything in the next email, tomorrow.

PS: For everyone who wrote a message, sent a DM, or thought of me for a microsecond, thank you!

See you soon!

Ciao!

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